Words I keep to myself

Behind

2011-11-05T10:18:00.001-07:00

Behind every smile,

A potential tear.

Behind every laughter,

A hidden fear.

Behind every word,

Thoughts lie misunderstood.

Behind every action,

Is self consciousness brewed.

Behind every poem,

The author conceals.

...

If you ever want to judge someone, think twice.

If you ever want to lose your temper at someone, think thrice.

For who are we to judge?

And do we take time to step into another person's shoes to truly understand how they feel?

Take time to understand.

Listen, look and learn before you speak.

Hope

2011-06-03T23:17:00.000-07:00

A rainbow

My sign of renewed hope

The day I start afresh

At the break of dawn

Listening to the sounds

the birds sing their songs

the rooster crowing on the dot.

From their slumber people awake.

It's a brand new day.

To reflect, ponder and live.

Come to think of it, how can there be a rainbow at dawn? lol. anyways just keeping this here as an archive.

Time

2011-06-03T23:15:00.001-07:00

Am I a mere existing object,

just to please you?

You never acknowledged me.

When will that day ever come?

Yes I'm impatient

Selfish.

Wanting you to myself.

Wanting my questions answered.

Wanting my curiosities enlightened.

Here I am now

Just wishing, wanting, waiting

for you to take

the very first time

for time is ticking.

For when time runs out

All that ever was,

fades away.

30/9/08, 11:22pm, Tues

Hidden meanings

2011-06-03T23:13:00.000-07:00

A picture paints a thousand words

And yes these words

I have yet to read

For I haven't even read,

between the lines

what has been hidden

from the naked eye

away from sight.

Goodbye

2011-06-03T23:11:00.001-07:00

After awhile

these things don't matter

as feelings scatter

It's just sooner or later.

Though you said forever

But you said goodbye

And I was left

with tears in my eyes.

The puppy

2011-06-03T23:08:00.000-07:00

The puppy with the sad face

To see you running happily

Expressions like that in a race

I beam joyfully

To see you happy.

There used to be a puppy outside where I took piano class who looked really sad and cute. That's how this came about.

2011-06-03T23:06:00.000-07:00

These are old poems dating back to a few years ago. Transferring them here cos I changed my phone :)

I can't forget

2010-11-12T07:30:00.000-08:00

How do I move on
If I'm still in love with you
Years have passed
Yet the feelings never diminished.

As hard as I try
To replace you
To suppress the feelings
It resurfaces.

Despite the passing of time
Feelings are left,
Unrequited,
Do I let go?

If I could,
I certainly would.

You V

2010-11-12T07:27:00.000-08:00

I love your smile
Though you seem serious
That smile you reserve
Drives me delirious.

Perhaps it's meant for me?
Or so I'd like to think.
Why is it that he,
Drives me to the brink?

Of craziness,
I'd like to add,
Despite the business,
Am I infatuated?

The world will not understand,
You will not know
This secret none will comprehend
Though only I will glow

Imagination

2010-11-12T07:26:00.001-08:00

24/5/10

Imagination
At the hour
Where the sun smiles
Straight down
Where shadows are longest
Many run for shelter
The rest bask in it's radiance.

Running

2010-11-12T07:24:00.001-08:00

23/5/10

Running for dear life
From all the stride
Yes it is rife,
Deadly like a knife.

My imagination

2010-11-12T07:23:00.001-08:00

22/5/10

Are you a fraction of my imagination?
Do you reside in shadows
appearing only before me,
but to the rest you remain transparent.

PDA

2010-11-12T07:20:00.000-08:00

21/5/10

PDA
Totally inappropriate
Keep your hands to yourself please
It's appalling
totally disgusting.

Why in public?
Totally mind boggling,
In the deep dark corners.

Why there I wonder,
Do you want to reside,
among the creepy crawlies?

Disted library while studying a couple was making out. ugh.

Rude Boy

2010-11-12T07:19:00.001-08:00

21/5/10

Rude boy,
I'm not your toy,
Won't even try to be coy
Never falling for your ploy.

Don't use me
What you're doing
I can see
So I'm going

Away,
Yes I say,
No I won't play
I'm keeping at bay

2010-11-12T07:18:00.001-08:00

15/5/10

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment, life is a maze and love is a riddle :)

Lenka- the show

2010-11-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

Nightmare that i had 13.5.10

Blood thirsty sacrifice
A hungry dark lord
lost souls
trapped
deceit
a group of students
walking into an unexpected trap
turns out to be a snare
to appease the king and gods
a tale of power against evil
a girl is bestowed a sword
that she must plunge into the king's heart
to save her friends and the world
boys entered gates of torment
fat friend thrown into altar
to keep fire burning
walk into inner city
from a group only few left

Crushless

2010-11-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

13/5/10

Crushless and loving it
Freedom xD
Single
But not available xP
Happy
Uh huh. x)

Nature's Symphony

2010-11-12T07:12:00.000-08:00

6/5/10

At the hour of 7,
He sings a proud song
Pride in this breast,
The feathers that glimmer,
The first sight of shimmer,
That illuminates the morning skies,
Then joined in chorus,
The birds of a feather,
My they really do flock together.
It's nature's symphony,
Perfectly orchestrated,
The sounds of dawn,
A new day approaching.

Who I am

2010-11-12T07:10:00.001-08:00

2/5/10

Holding on to the fragments,
The remaining remnants
Memories I've stored
at the back of my mind,
To be relived,
time and time again,
These are precious,
My joys, victories,
sadness, failures,
All of which have moulded
the person I am today.

You IV

2010-11-12T07:09:00.001-08:00

An inbox full of you.
that remind me of you
Cause I think I'm in love with you,
You know that's true.

Miss you

2010-11-12T07:07:00.000-08:00

I miss you
You don't know it
I don't exist to you
One moment it's a fairytale
In another you're gone
It isn't just htis once,
It's too many a time
Lost all hope
All that's left is me.

for eg. yes.

the -ues

2010-11-12T07:06:00.000-08:00

This is hue,
It's the colour of blue,
To which I have no clue,
To what remains true,
There is a queue,
For it might cue,
To what is due.

Doesn't make sense but it rhymes. :P

You III

2010-11-12T07:05:00.000-08:00

Why does my heart race,
When i see you,
When we talk
At your slightest smile,
The words you say,
Though the world's against you,
I'm the opposite.
Head over heels.
Why you I wonder.

You II

2010-11-12T07:03:00.000-08:00

You're a bright cloud
Illuminating the darkest day.

You're the reason to smile,
though problems may pile.

My lucky charm,
You're always there,
Lifting me
from my darkest snare.

Yes I think of you daily,
In happiness and sadness,
Far as you may be,
Though you may love another,
My feelings for you,
Will keep getting stronger.

Predicament

2010-11-12T07:02:00.001-08:00

15/3/2010
edited on 12/11/2010

still incomplete

In confusion
A predicament,
Which path to select,
the choice I make,
affects my future
can never be undone.

Is it just a crush?

2010-11-12T07:00:00.000-08:00

1/2010

Maybe it's just a crush,
It's been awhile since
I've felt this way.

My heart skips a bear
At the sight of you
It melts like a sundae
On a sunny day
Your smile lights
Even the darkest morning.

You complete my day. :)

Jealousy

2010-11-12T06:59:00.000-08:00

5/2008

incomplete

Jealousy,
it leads to pure hatred.
Lies,
selfish, self-centered words.

Reflections

2010-11-12T06:57:00.000-08:00

5/2008

Looking back,
to think I was so foolish,
failing to see right in front of me,
living in my own fantasies,
but now my eyes have opened,
its is too late,
turning your back towards me,
you're walking away.

Waiting

2010-11-12T06:55:00.000-08:00

11.57pm, Tuesday, 30/9/2008

Waiting expectantly,
heart racing,
thoughts frantic,
for your reply.

Mind in a state
of turmoil,
I am confused.

Where are we heading to?
Are you trying to get me disorientated?
As I end this,
you still haven't replied.

It works even today, this poem. I miss you eugene and the same thing that happened 3.5 years ago is repeating itself. Just that this time you told me you liked me. I'm shattered.

Friends

2010-11-12T06:52:00.001-08:00

12.24am Wednesday, 15/10/2008

Will you be my friend, my confidante?
Someone to confide in?

Will you be my friend, a protector?
Keeping me safe,
Whenever I'm with you?

Will you be my friend, a listener?
To lend an ear in times of distress?

Will you be my hero, my saviour?
To pick me up when I fall?

Will you be my friend, through good or bad?
Stick with me through thick and thin?
A shoulder to lean on?

If you are all of the above,
you really are a true friend,
I thank you for staying true,
For through you, I find myself.

You

2010-11-12T06:50:00.000-08:00

9.11am Sunday 31/8/2008

Your face,
a work of art,
etched in my mind.

Your voice,
the soundtrack,
of my heart.

Your touch,
the warmth,
embraces me gently.

Your kisses,
the honey,
to my lips.

Your love,
the heartbeat,
of my life.

(i still have my first kiss intact :D )

It's too late

2010-11-12T06:44:00.000-08:00

10.38pm Sunday 2/11/2008
Sadness overwhelms me,
Maybe I shouldn't have,
uttered those words.

Now,
I'm filled with regrets.
Knowing it was too harsh,
Heart breaking.

I want to take it back,
To have said it differently.
Yes, it's too late.
The damage is done,
glass is shattered,
never to be whole again.

Eventhough it can't be undone,
I just want to say,
I'm sorry,
and thank you for everything.

The time and love you gave,
I'm sorry I couldn't repay,
Sorry to leave you,
In this broken state.

For my heart belongs,
to someone else,
feelings unrequited.

My submission to Rage (The Star)

2010-07-27T20:17:00.001-07:00

Title: Who are you?

My heart skipped many beats,
at the sight of you.
My pulse began to race,
As we exchanged glances,
perplexed looks,
with the slightest recognition in our eyes.

You're the puzzle,
that's gotten me puzzled.
Now I'm trying to put the pieces together,
Wondering where we've met before,
Wondering why I'm feeling this way,
Wondering who you are.

Your origins struck a vague memory,
The faintness of it frustrates me.
I can't seem to trace
Who you are,
or who you may be.
Perhaps we've met?
spoken in a dream or two?
Or was it reality?

Yet I'll never know,
for you are worlds apart,
and we may never meet again.

Pseudonym: Elsy

27/9/2008

2010-05-21T00:05:00.001-07:00

My heart is racing
I am like a tornado
A magnet of calamity
feeling as though
everything I do
destructs before me.

25/09/2008

2010-05-20T23:48:00.000-07:00

This feeling,
It overwhelms me,
Whenever I'm with you,
You make my heart race
and skip a beat.

I wonder if you too
Feel the same wat
or is it just a silly crush,
an obssesion that fades
away with time.

Are we soulmates?
Meant to be?
Together forever,
you and me?

Updates

2010-05-20T04:18:00.000-07:00

Gonna be blogging and updating really really really old stuff.
Which means nothing really.
Just random inspiration from years back and new stuff too.
:)

2009-12-01T22:01:00.000-08:00

About 10 more. O.o I didn't realize I wrote so many.

Physics now. Ciao. =)

This is what jealousy does to you.

2009-12-01T21:59:00.000-08:00

I was jealous. yeah. lol.

I don't like you,
I never did,
I never will.
I'm still trying to move on,
Stop acting,
like you know everything.
It's all plain gibberish,
I was so foolish.

Go away.

Random II

2009-12-01T21:57:00.000-08:00

Random,
quirky ideas,
expressions,
of individuals,
sanctum of thoughts,
momentum,
crazy velocities.

What? LOL. I don't even get this.

the -ics

2009-12-01T21:55:00.000-08:00

Strictly platonic,
I'm melancholic,
you're melodic,
its harmonic,
overly bombastic,
its plastic,
very fantastic.

LOL.

I'm going crazy

2009-12-01T21:53:00.000-08:00

My mind is whirling,
spiraling,
out of control,
a vortex of turmoil,
thoughts afrenzy,
I'm going crazy.

This one, me likey. =P

Learning

2009-12-01T21:50:00.000-08:00

Things are beginning to fall in place,
the facade,
gone.

Gaining acceptance,
for just being me,
escaping the snare,
now I'm free.

I found friends,
I am very happy,
and myself with.

I learned to love,
most importantly myself,
I learned to love,
others unselfishly.
I learned to let go,
and that time heals.
I learned not to let go,
of the memories,
the friendships.

Most of all,
I know who I am.

Random

2009-12-01T21:49:00.001-08:00

Yours truly was willing to let go of her past and give it a try. You never know till you try.

I tried. Really. Then I remembered. I had to do what I had to do.

Its best.
For you
and me.

Wary

2009-12-01T21:47:00.000-08:00

Now I understand,
why you cautioned,
against the player,
he caused me to falter.

My eyes wide open,
before my heart is broken.

=(

Ramblings

2009-12-01T21:44:00.000-08:00

I was angry and jealous. So I wrote this.

Something that never was,
is past,
We were never meant to be,
You toyed with me,
Like a doll,
without a soul,
evil,
heartless,
senseless.

The worst I've ever met,
I'm filled with regret,
I fell to fast,
giving you my trust.

Before I sway,
I'm running away,
From your snare,
this is not a dare.

=(=(=(=(=(

Fireflies- my version

2009-12-01T21:43:00.000-08:00

Adapted from Owl City's fireflies, can be sung to the chorus.

I try to make myself believe,
that you were perfect,
for me,
but now I realize,
how silly I have been,
cause things are never really as they seem.

Fireflies

2009-12-01T21:41:00.000-08:00

"I try to make myself believe, that planet Earth turns, slowly"

Owl City- Fireflies

You

2009-12-01T21:39:00.000-08:00

Addicted,
appalled,
why?
why you?
The person with a reputation,
I don't know what to do,
You are like cocaine,
tempting,
yet I will restrain.

=/ not a good one but just to keep tabs, so i know which phase of life i'm in.

Ensnared

2009-12-01T21:37:00.000-08:00

I have fallen,
ensnared by the sweetened,
words you utter,
amidst the clutter,
enchanted by your manner,
my first ever encounter,
free me from this spell,
that I am under.

The puppet II

2009-12-01T21:35:00.000-08:00

Devoid of emotion,
a puppet hanging in shadows,
controlled by darkness,
each string.
A sinister, malicious ploy,
to charm me,
into deception.

Free me from this spell,
from the strings that bind me.

2009-12-01T21:34:00.000-08:00

" Knowing others is wisdom,
knowing yourself is enlightenment. "

-Source unknown-

The past

2009-12-01T21:32:00.000-08:00

Sorrow overwhelms me,
the memories,
the times together,
the ups and downs.

How could I have hurt you like that?

You say you have no regrets,
I have plenty,
ultimately,
for letting you go.

Yet, time will heal,
Eventually you will move on,
and so will I,
and find a better person,
to live and to love,
as you never have before.

Love me as you see me

2009-12-01T21:30:00.000-08:00

Love me as you see me,
For who I am.
Judge me not.
I am human,
fallible,
just like you.

Would you have no prejudices against me?
That we might live,
like the birds in the sky,
free to spread our wings
and soar high.

To God

2009-12-01T21:27:00.000-08:00

I trust in You.
My rock,
My redeemer,
My fortress,
in times,
where the winds of trouble,
blow vehemently,
where life crumbles right before me,
when everything seems to go wrong.

You will deliver me,
no matter how dark or how deep,
my valley of trouble may be,
I have faith in you,
for your timing is perfect,
and your plans are best for me.

Listen to the cries of my heart,
the pining, longing
for You.

I love you.

From, your precious child.

Lost

2009-10-29T19:14:00.000-07:00

A lost soul,
love me as I am,
seek as you would seek,
the truth in me,
that I may find,
tranquility,
amidst my troubled soul.

2009-10-24T00:47:00.000-07:00

ily (:
the sunshine that lights the darkest morning,
the song that nature sings.

Fury

2009-10-24T00:46:00.000-07:00

Blinded by fury,
enraged and in tears,
I am trying so hard,
don't you understand?

2009-10-24T00:44:00.000-07:00

Why do I hope?
When despair awaits me?
That little glimmer,
that little smile,
though eventually,
it is inevitable,
that you will be the death of me.

Darkness

2009-10-24T00:42:00.000-07:00

The dark, menacing shadows,
creep over me,
engulfing me in fear.

I tremble,
unsure where to turn to,
in the absence of light,
as darkness towers upon me.

Rain

2009-10-21T23:40:00.000-07:00

The rain is timely
reflecting my soul.
The sadness,
the misery,
when you let go.

Let the rain fall,
wash away my sorrows.

Heartbroken

2009-10-21T04:47:00.001-07:00

Heartbroken,
torn into two.
Why don't you understand?
That it's hard for me?
That I am trying?

Now,
you completely let go,
and all that ever was, is or maybe,
has faded away.

Balloon

2009-10-21T04:45:00.000-07:00

My childlike antics,
I am delighted,
by the inflation
of a single glove.
I now have,
a balloon!

xD

Emotions, rantings

2009-10-21T04:43:00.000-07:00

Frustrated,
angered,
tired,
insane.

Wake me up,
from this dellusion,
Give me back my wings.

I can't even fly,
what more soar.

My tears I no longer suppress,
tantrums thrown freely.

I am tired,
leave me to rest.

Rainbow

2009-10-21T04:41:00.000-07:00

The rainbow after the storm,
glorious seven colours.
Magnificently illuminating
the deep blue sky,
a child's delight.

Hope for the world,
in the midst of darkness,
let your light shine.

Time

2009-10-21T04:38:00.000-07:00

At the brink of death
as the angel of darkness
reaches into my soul
grabbing it whole.

My breath
gushes out of my lungs.
a single breath.
Heart decelerates,
the world fades to black.

Along the way,
a bright light,
flashes of memories,
peals of laughter ringing,
conversations.

I am transported back in time.

Missing

2009-10-21T04:36:00.000-07:00

Missing,
wishing,
to hear from you,
yet to no avail.
Tormenting my soul
thoughts that flash
and yes they clash.
my dreams
mixed with reality
removing all clarity.

my attempt to make it sort of rhyme, failed miserably. lol.

Missing you

2009-10-21T04:35:00.000-07:00

I am here wondering why,
you always leave,
halfway in conversation.
I am hanging in midair,
where have you gone to?
I miss you.

Run this town tonight.

2009-10-21T04:33:00.000-07:00

I like this. It's from a song, run this town tonight.

Have you ever had shoes without shoe strings?
We gona run this town tonight.

xD

Beauty

2009-10-21T04:32:00.001-07:00

Learn to savour the beauty
in the littlest of things.
Learn to enjoy life,
each trial it brings.
Life is wonderful,
the world is beautiful.
Then easily content you'll be,
and bliss will be your companion.

When I think of you

2009-10-21T04:29:00.000-07:00

My heart beats for you,
your presence makes me feel immortal,
out of this world.

My pulse quickens,
like an electricity,
jolting me awake.
I'm filled with the delight
of a child,
engulfed in warmth,
when I think of you.

Accept me

2009-10-21T04:26:00.000-07:00

If I break free from this shell
that I am hiding in,
will you accept me?

After my long absence,
no matter how hideous the scars,
my flaws may be?

I am mortal,
with fear of being judged,
discriminated by you.
I long for acceptance,
not denying my fear.

Yes I am afraid,
of the cliques,
that are so domineering,
attempting to swallow
my self-esteem whole.

My heart yearns
I long to return,
to be accepted.

The butterfly

2009-10-12T01:38:00.000-07:00

The bitterness,
melts into sweet honey,
the rainbow after the storm.
A sole butterfly,
flapping its wings,
in a world of black and white.

(incomplete. lol.)

Seek

2009-10-12T01:36:00.001-07:00

Forgotten dreams,
Broken memories.
Lost, wandering souls.

Seek and you will find,
answers floating amidst
the clouds in the air.
In a spectrum of colours,
warmly surrounding,
something hidden,
yet to be sought.

Something to learn,
behind every calamity,
every tragedy.

Seek.

Heartless

2009-10-12T01:35:00.001-07:00

Why would you want to exchange places?
For me to suffer?
The agony you are going through?
How selfish can you be?
How heartless can you get?

Looking from a distance

2009-10-12T01:33:00.001-07:00

Looking from a distance
I notice,
the many masks you wear,
your many facades.

I sit back and wonder,
where is the real you?

To the crowds,
you are one with the world.
To a person like me,
you are a world of difference.

Won't you stop this game?
Just stop pretending
for I already know.
It's too late.

Mortal

2009-10-12T01:30:00.000-07:00

You breathe life,
into my mortal soul.
Healing my pain,
lift me up,
into the heavens.
Yet you,
know not of what you do.
For my identity,
I have kept secret.

My little secret

2009-10-12T01:28:00.000-07:00

I stop,
pausing to smile.
to reminisce a person,
who means the world to me.

Yet this person,
knows not,
the joy he brings.
The little spark of happiness,
jolting awake the delight of the child,
which was left in slumber,
illuminating my gloomiest day.

My ecstasy,
my little secret.

;)

Silence

2009-10-12T01:25:00.002-07:00

Photographs immortalize memories,
as I learn to live with the silence.
The laughter of children eludes me.
The chirping that once was,
now a dead silence.
As deathly as midnight.
All that is left is sights, smells, taste, touch.
Of which I have become
more sensitive to.
Won't you learn,
just learn to accept me?
Won't you take time,
to understand, not shy away?
For I am like you,
human, just different.
But special in God's eyes.

Smile (:

2009-10-12T01:25:00.001-07:00

You put a smile on my face,
a song in my heart.
You make my day.

Masks and disguises

2009-10-12T01:23:00.001-07:00

My efforts futile,
often frustrating.
Thoughts encircle me,
spiraling in a vortex,
out of control.
In a web of facades,
which I hide in.
The many masks and disguises,
concealing the real me.

Mistakes

2009-10-12T01:21:00.000-07:00

My life,
destroyed in my own hands.
My future,
crumbling before me.
Spoken words,
linger painfully,
My mistakes,
daunting me
for it may never be undone.

Despair

2009-10-12T01:19:00.000-07:00

Something I cannot have,
withing a near distance,
yet I cannot grasp.

Wishing,
wanting,
aching,
in despair.

Night and day

2009-10-12T01:15:00.000-07:00

Stifled tears,
streaming down my cheeks.

My screams,
muffled.

My every thought of you,
silenced.

Did it have to be this way?
Was I meant to know?
Do be tortured night and day?

Glimpses of you,
uncontrollably flashing.
The memories,
they never fade.

When you left,
you took a piece of me with you.

Reminiscing times

2009-09-21T22:08:00.001-07:00

I was struck,
by beauty,
magnificent beyond description.
Like a magnet,
opposites attracted.
Like a sailor,
to a mermaid,
reaching forth,
fearing not his safety.

I did just that,
I let go,
going against the odds,
of what was expected of me.

I broke free,
no longer attached,
as people assumed,
though I never was.

Eventhough we've parted ways,
our memories remain.

The time gazes met,
souls linked,
etched in my memories

Light

2009-09-21T22:05:00.000-07:00

Light,
leaving spots of shadows,
illumintaing the darkness.

Day during night.

I am once again,
reminded of you,
of how the dark spots
tint my memories.
This darkness,
ceases to elude me,
I think of you.

Yet,
despite this darkness,
i am beginning to accept,
the real you,
despite your flaws.

In time,
you'll come
to understand me too.

Agitation

2009-09-21T22:02:00.000-07:00

In this dark alley,
crowded with people,
stems inspiration.

Its,
A corridor,
of beating hearts,
radiating heat,
causing me to wait,
in agitation.

written while waiting. and yeah i was annoyed. lol.

The puppet

2009-09-04T04:48:00.001-07:00

Hanging on to threads,
of memories remaining.
Like a puppet with strings,
frayed over time.
Now I'm hanging,
on the verge of falling.

Life ceases

2009-09-04T04:45:00.000-07:00

Why do you do this to me?
You make it hard to breathe.
Each passing second seems like eternity.
The clock stops ticking,
my life ceasing,
without you.
You left me in the open,
bare,
exposed.
Composure stripped.

Won't you come back?
And make me whole again.

(this was long ago. am okay now. =) )

A bad dream, tribute to Keane

2009-09-04T04:44:00.001-07:00

I wish it was just a bad dream.
When I wake up,
its all over.
Back to a reality so sweet.

But I'm living in this nightmare,
when is it going to end?

Shattered

2009-09-04T04:42:00.000-07:00

Its easier to repair if its broken into 2 solid pieces.
Now its shattered.
I'm never going to replace all the pieces.
Into one whole heart.
What am I to do?

Set me free

2009-09-04T04:39:00.000-07:00

All I ask for is this,
have I ever demanded before?
I'm always just listening, following,
keeping my thoughts to myself.
This is the last straw.
Just leave me be,
give me my freedom.
That is all I ask for.

Memories

2009-08-29T03:51:00.000-07:00

Holding on to fragments
of pieces that remain,
this sharp, shattered glass.
Piercing.

Clutching it tightly,
close to my heard,
sadness trickles,
alongside silent streams
of blood and tears.

The drip,
absorbed in the soil,
fading.

And all that remains is nothing.
but memories of me and you.

Embarrassment

2009-08-29T03:44:00.000-07:00

Embarrassment,
a tush of blood.
pink cheeks and ears
A red ripe tomato.
Bursting at its seams.

Stares.

2009-08-29T03:42:00.000-07:00

You stare,
stealing seconds,
eyes meet.
Cryptic codes sent,
often misleading.

Your indications?
Your inclinations?
To me?

Curiosity at its fullest,
caving in on me.

The mask

2009-08-29T03:22:00.000-07:00

I wear a mask,
a facade.
To conceal,
the real me.
For fear,
of being judged,
misunderstood.
Can I ever reveal myself?
This heavy burden.
This play I'm acting.
Will you understand?
Listen to what I have to say,
before judging?
I'm struggling to be free.
To show the real me.

Accept me as who I am.

Don't try to change me.

Rain

2009-08-29T02:49:00.000-07:00

Sitting here
Staring out my window
The rain falls
Clouds break open
The sounds
They drown me
Engulfing me slowly,
very slowly.
and I feel as if I'm sinking
In this blanket of moisture.

Insanity

2008-10-04T22:06:00.000-07:00

Desolation

on the verge of breaking down

times like these,

questions race

thoughts come, trickling.

A monologue,

conversations with myself,

replaying horrible moments,

driving me to the brink of

INSANITY.

Memories

2008-10-04T22:03:00.000-07:00

Time and time again,

vivid images flood

through my head,

a picture, muted.

It all feels so near,

but time makes it distant.

What seems like yesterday,

was long, long ago.

These memories,

I cherish.

Distance

2008-10-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

Peering out of my window

thinking of you

though you are far

I wonder if we gaze,

upon the same moon,

wish upon the same star...

Distance has borught us closer.

Time has been put to a stop.

Till the day you return,

and we reunite once again.

Souls linked.

2008-10-04T21:56:00.000-07:00

The day we met,

our gaze collided.

My heart started beating faster.

I wonder if yours did.

Now your hands,

contour perfectly,

with mine,

as shy fingers touched.

Souls linked.